What to do when you miss a man that you know isn't any good for you...?

I loved him, and I still do.But I love myself alot more I'm 21 I have a decent job, transportation my own apt. and I'm in school I . In the short time of 3 months I've known,loved moved-in and kicked out a 26 year old man who I really did care for. In three months he's told hundreds of lies, laid out twice for 3-5 days at a time, lied about being locked up gotten kicked out his apartment and then kicked out of mine. I felt like I was gonna lose my mind, and I'm okay. That's the scary part! I dont' know why i'm not hurting and crying. I'm actualy ok, what gives! I miss him, I miss him being at home with me at night, I miss him holding me. But i can do without the lies, the staying out all night and the argument. I'm not compeltely happy he's gone cuz I neva wanted to be lonely. But I'm ok and it's weird. Has anyone ever felt this way and what is a girl to do when she is feeling so good about being away from someone so toxic, but feeling sad cuz I miss his touch?